Fuji mountain from Hakone. After 3 transfers and 4 different transportation, I finally arrived in the place where I can see the mountain. All tourists came the same way, I somehow felt very paranoid and tired. Isn't this supposed to be relaxing?
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For some strange reasons, I keep my living space tidy as if some one would come and inspect my room without notifying me. I scrapped my bath tub, meticulously clean the stove and mop the floor every day despite the fact I am as tired as a dog after work. I just cannot bear the thought that someone might come to my apartment when I am not around. My principle is to hide the trace of a living human being has been in this space.
Before departing for a business trip, I shut down electricity and gas, remove the garbage, make sure there is not shred of smell left in the kitchen and bathroom apart from the heavy chlorine scent. Dispose all foods (that was usually carefully calculated, little is wasted) from the fridge. Painstakingly go over my wardrobe, everything has to be folded neatly as if no one has ever lived here. You cannot tell who I am from my flat, there are definitely no personalities. The only thing that might give it away was the books I am reading.
In hotel room things are not getting any better, when I leave the room, everthing is stowed or hidden, yes, no one is staying in this room tonight. I just cannot truely relax. Those places are not my permenant to me, I always feel I am on the go any minute.
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